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2006/05/08

轉眼五月了

轉眼五月了，又長大了一歲。今年心情較矛盾，朋友問我用怎樣的心情來迎接這個生日，卻不知如何表達。誰不知在生日當天晩上看P.S. I Love You時，看到女主角Holly在生日那天自白，頓覺這就是我的感覺：

Holly stopped daydreaming and returned her gaze to her reflection in her bedroom mirror. She didn't feel thirty. But then again, what was being thirty supposed to feel like? When she was younger, thirty seemed so far away, she thought that a woman of that age would be so wise and knowledgeable, so settled in her life with a husband and children and a career. She had none of those things. She still felt as clueless as she had felt when she was twenty, only with a few more gray hairs and crow's-feet around her eyes...

（子儂譯：「荷莉從白日夢中醒來，轉身對著房中的鏡子，凝視著鏡中的自己。她並不覺得自己已三十歲了，但再想一回，三十歲了應該有怎樣的感覺呢？在她年少時，三十歲好像還有很遠才到，而在她心中，三十歲的女人都是聰敏的，有見識的，有自己的事業的，與丈夫和孩子過著安穩的生活。但是，她現在甚麼還沒有。她仍像二十歲時那樣感到無知，只是多了幾根白頭髮和眼角的皺紋……」）

雖然心裡還不想長大得太快，但我仍覺得“There are still something about being thirty worth celebrating”，因為我還是我，仍是那個愛往前看的我，要面對的始終要面對。

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